Day 81 to 83: So Unmotivated

 




Here we go ! It's a new year. Time to get back on track with diet and exercise. The goal was 100 pounds by 12-31-25 but I'm failing miserably. I'm not going to link my original day 80 through 83. I'm so discouraged with my inability to get back on track. I am still waking up coughing and blowing my nose and I am wondering when this is going to end ! Ironically, when I read through my original blogs for day 80 to 83, I was fighting a cold and the temps were much colder. I wasn't exercising because the cold wouldn't let go ! Hmmm, sounds familiar ! Today I'm regretting tossing all my vitamins. I'm going to at least start taking a multivitamin again, so I'll pick some up when I go to Walmart tomorrow.


To catch up, I haven't done much over the past couple of days. Tuesday I spent the day watching YouTube and playing my slot games. Yesterday was the same but I did go to rock & roll bingo. It was great to get out and I enjoyed my pizza and beer ! Today I had intended to go to Walmart but I didn't. I will go tomorrow as I have to drop off my water/sewer payment, which is due on Tuesday. I haven't made a list yet so I need to do that !


Our weather remains unsettled. I came downstairs to snow on the ground yesterday, though it melted as soon as the sun came out. We had flurries for most of the morning. Temps have stayed in the 30's and 40's and won't be much warmer over the next few days. I really want to wash my car but I need a warm day for that !


I'm going to try and get the treadmill program restarted on Saturday, which is March 29. I really want to get back to a regular routine starting April 1, so the weekend will be a good time to start easing into it. I'm so unhappy with my weight. I hate the way I look. I hate the way I feel. I'm just so discouraged and unmotivated and sad and angry .. all at the same time. I know I can do this if I try but I can't seem to manage the "try" part of things !


I think the uncertainty in my life factors into it. I haven't heard anything about the potential job that I interviewed for. I'm ok with them not hiring me as I really don't want to go back to work. Once my unemployment runs out I will have to have some conversations about Social Security, my pension and my IRA. I have enough money to pay my bills for at least a year, but I don't want to spend all my savings. 

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