Day 96 through 99: Zero Progress

 

Here we go ! It's a new year. Time to get back on track with diet and exercise. The goal was 100 pounds by 12-31-25 but I'm failing miserably. I was so excited on January 1 but I'm so discouraged now.

So nothing has changed. I'm still stuck. Still not motivated. Still feeling no purpose. I didn't think losing my job was that bad but I'm starting to realize I lost my purpose in life at the same time. I have no reason to get up at a specific time. I have no reason to go to bed at a specific time. Why bother ? I don't have to be "at work" anymore. I don't leave the house most days so there's no reason to get dressed or shower. No one visits, so there's no reason to worry about cleaning the house. Bingo night and weekend road trips with Rich & Barb is all that keeps me sane. I really think I need to set a routine if I ever want to regain control of my life. I need to set at alarm for 8 am and shower when I get up. Ok - so I just set the alarm in my phone. I also need to target one room per day for cleaning. That is NOT a big ask ! The house isn't a mess but the bathroom's and the kitchen floor need a good scrub. I also need to get dressed every day. No more sitting here in my nightgown all day long. That's a good starting point. I've been getting up later because Jackpot World resets at 11 pm and I get sucked in to the new challenges. 

So what have I done since I last wrote ? I don't recall anything earth shattering on Tuesday 4-8, other than an inch or two of snow ! I might have showered and done some laundry. Wednesday was bingo night and that was fun ! It was Kim & Joe's 37th wedding anniversary and Joe brought a cake to celebrate. Yesterday I did my usual: YouTube and online slots. Today I forced myself off the couch and out the door to gas up the car and stock up on things at Walmart. I also picked up the mail. I need to do that more often and now that the weather is nicer I can start walking to the post office at least once a week. I got a notice from the IRS claiming I owe $590 and I think that is a mistake. I'll have to call them next week - that should be fun. I'm not going to stress about it, since I can easily afford to pay it if I have to.

I bought hot dogs and had 3 of them for dinner tonight and I've been regretting that. It was too much food and I am uncomfortably stuffed. I'm watching Coachella on YouTube for something different. The singer on now is Marina and wow, her voice is amazing ! I tuned in just in time to catch Lola Young's set. Her voice is amazing but she was dressed like a slob and that was distracting. It's unfortunate because she posts all kinds of photo's on Instagram wearing cute outfits. Why go to Coachella looking like you thrifted your clothes on the way there ?

On the subject of my Walmart trip, I didn't really keep to the Nutrisystem guidelines. The hotdogs are bad. I also bought a cherry pie and a cheese danish. I also bought a tub of chocolate covered almonds and 4 six packs of caramel filled chocolate bars I bought last time I shopped. The good thing is I've been able to limit myself to one per day, so 24 pieces should last 24 days ! I also bought some of the pretzel sticks I used to buy. Walmart didn't have them for a while so I was glad to see them. I also bought two huge cans of green beans and a huge bag of frozen corn. I'm sick of broccoli, carrots and frozen green beans. I bought the large cans as they were cheaper and once I open a can I'll eat them for a few days. I can also freeze leftovers in small containers, if necessary. Corn isn't really a Nutrisystem veggie, but it will be a nice change in small quantities.

I haven't heard anything more from my neighbor about trapping the stray cats, other than an update that she found another kitten and that the female they trapped ran off and hid in the barn on the farm they took her to. Once the one female was trapped I was still seeing the 3 orange males and the orange female. However, the past 2 days I've only seen the orange female and the old orange male. The 2 younger orange males haven't been around. I'd love it if someone trapped them and found them homes as they are beautiful boys. I wasn't happy to hear they let the pregnant female they trapped escape. I hope they intervene and ensure her kittens are cared for and adopted and that she is spayed. It's out of my hands and hopefully they are putting food out for her. 

My cold is about 99% gone. I bought some orange juice and multivitamins at Walmart today. I'm going to start having a glass of juice in the morning and taking the vitamins in the evening. I'm not getting any younger and I need to take better care of myself. That means getting this weight off ! 

I came downstairs this morning to find the clock on the stove flashing, which indicates we had a power outage. I then found I had no internet and I had to reset my equipment 3 times before I got it to work. It was frustrating but I was glad it wasn't anything more than that ! m

Tomorrow is day 100. Can I motivate a restart ? We'll see.