Day 165 to 170: Hello Summer !

 

Time for a new mission statement. My goal for 2025 was to lose 100 pounds by 12-31-25 but I've failed miserably. At some point I need to pick myself up and try. A realistic goal at this point is 50 pounds by 12-31-25, so that is where I will start. When will I start ? I don't know .. do I need a "starting point" ? I don't. Every day that I don't "start" just adds to my misery. I plan to just take each day as it comes and do what I can to move closer to where I want to be. Life has changed and I haven't been able to adapt just yet.

It's been a while since I've written, but I've been a little busy ! June 16 was Monday and I didn't really do anything. Tuesday was trash day and I did manage to put the trash out. The day became an adventure shortly after 8 pm. I wanted an ice cream so about 8:23 pm I got in the car and headed to the place I like up near Pulaski. Well, it looked like the restaurant was open but the ice cream stand was not, so I turned around and headed back to Mexico. I thought about going to Top's and just buying a half gallon of ice cream, but I really wanted soft serve and I was going to need gas before rock & roll bingo, so I headed towards 81 South. I went to Delta Sonic and filled the tank, then headed to DQ where I got 2 large blizzards. I ate my favorite strawberry with chocolate chunks and froze the other one, which was called Mixing Bowl Mashup. The description indicates it's a mix of brownie batter and chocolate chip cookie dough. I got back home around 10:07 pm. Wednesday was rock & roll bingo so I didn't do anything other than get ready to go out that day. Rich & Barb came and Kim's friend Diane was there. I haven't seen her in forever as she lives in NC now and I only used to see her at Aunt Ann's parties. It was about 10:30 when I got home from bingo. Thursday I went to see a movie with Kim & Lauren (Materialist) and we also went to Costco. The movie was really good and I had a beef quesadilla and strawberry margarita at the theater. I only bought a couple things at Costco. Skinny Pop, paper bowls, cinnamon chip muffins and a box of multigrain crackers. I also bought a sweet snack that is like the bottom part of waffle cones and they're filled with chocolate. I haven't opened the bag yet, so I don't know if they're any good. I left the house around 10:20 am and got home about 5 pm. Yesterday I went to the Mets game with Barb & Rich. Weather was perfect and it was an unexpected double header as Thursday's game was rained out. I left the house around 2:15 and got home about 10:15 pm. We started the evening with pierogies and beer ! It was SO good ! After the first game (Mets won!) I grabbed a 2nd beer, hot dog and salt potatoes. They were also delicious ! Midway through the 2nd game (Mets lost) I got an ice cream. I got a mild sunburn on my face but I'm glad to have a little color ! Also, we got a pic with the mascot Scooch ! We think he "recognizes" us so we've managed to get at least 3 photo's with him/her. You can't really tell the gender of the person wearing the costume. The night ended with an amazing fireworks display. It was a wonderful evening and we had a lot of fun.

Needless to say, today was a day of rest ! I don't remember what time I got up but I think it was around 9. Minnie was my alarm clock this morning ! I spent the morning playing the slots as Jackpot World was feeling generous. However, I once again went from 11T coins to almost none. It's ok - I had fun ! I have over 100B coins on Dancing Drums so that app continues to be a favorite. I watched some YouTube and in the late afternoon I took a shower. It's 7:38 pm now and I'm just enjoying the evening. The long days of summer are here and we're expected a high of 92 on Monday ! I have the air conditioner in the window in my bedroom, so I'm ready for it. It's supposed to be nice all week but Monday is the only 90+ day.

From a diet and exercise perspective, nothing has changed. However, the more I see myself the unhappier I am. The picture below is a screen grab from the Ring camera on Tuesday. I am just as fat as I was when I first started Nutrisystem. All that time, effort and money for nothing. I threw it all away.

All that time, effort and money for nothing. I threw it all away. I will again repeat that this all started long before I lost my job, so I can't blame it on that. Depression maybe made thigs worse. Fears about my health also didn't help. All that being said, I started regaining the weight before Mom died, so I have no excuse. However, I feel like I'm in a better place now. My health is fine. The abdominal discomfort is due to my crappy couch and the fact that I sit on it all day. I feel fine. I just can't seem to "start" and stay consistent. I need to try harder, because I'm not trying at all right now.