September 5, 2025: Fall is Coming Fast !

 

Today's quote is food for thought. I feel like I stopped trying a long time ago, even before I was laid off. The weight started piling back on even before mom passed away. Those 2 statements tell me one thing: there is no one to blame for this but me. It wasn't losing mom. It wasn't losing my job. It was just me and my arrogance. I clearly didn't learn anything during the 2+ years it took me to lose 140+ pounds. I didn't "change" my eating habits, since I went right back to them once I hit about 160 pounds. Now I'm back to nearly 300 and faced with the monumental task of losing 140 pounds again. I haven't really been trying and that frustrates me. I honestly don't know where to "find" the inspiration and motivation I need. I keep thinking "what is the point?". At 63 my time left on this earth is limited and I'm sad about that. Life didn't change when I lost the weight and I think that sits in the back of my mind and holds me back to some degree. Nevertheless, today I vow to try.

I was awake just before 7 today, perhaps naturally and perhaps because of the subtle sounds of the arriving crew working on replacing the water pipes on my street. I was still tired and went back to sleep until almost 9. Once I was up and moving I felt energetic and ready to face the day. I fed Minnie and the outdoor cat and then enjoyed my breakfast while watching YouTube and playing the online slots. I'm still only playing Jackpot World and Dancing Drums.

My new security cams arrived yesterday and they were a slight disappointment until I figured a couple settings out. I only set up the one facing the driveway as I wasn't sure I was going to keep them. I'm happy enough that I will keep them both. It's not like I live in a ghetto, so I don't need a state of the art system. I think the presence of cameras is deterrent enough. I'm going to set up the camera for the side yard and see how that works tonight. These cameras were only $40 each, so you can't ask for miracles. A spotlight on the corner of the house to light the side yard would be ideal and I may look into adding one some day. 

It was chilly this morning ! The dining room thermostat read 67 but once I was moving around I wasn't cold. I left a window open in the living room and I'll bet the house would have been a couple degrees warmer if I hadn't. It's 11:43 now and it's 67 and sunny outside. It's warm enough to have the front door open so Minnie can bask in the sun. All the porch windows are closed because of yesterday's rain. The high for today is 79 but tomorrow is only 61 ! Our boat ride is going to be a chilly one, so I need to make sure I dress warm. I might even bring my Mets blanket !

Alyssa texted me today to see if I would take a cat that one of her co-worker's found. As much as I would love another cat I doubt Minnie would take to a sibling at her age. She is 16 now and until Abby passed away she didn't get as much attention as I think she would have liked. I also find myself unable to travel since Minnie can't do 100% dry food and I hesitate to ask Alyssa & Erin to take care of her. I'm also 63 now and a cat is a 15+ year investment. I don't see me slinging 38 pound boxes of litter for much longer ! I felt bad saying no but it was the right thing to do.

On that note, I've made a chocolate shake and I'm going to get on the treadmill ! I got dressed earlier and put the shoes on, so I'm ready to rock & roll !